Needless to say

I haven't exactly taken care of my poor blog.
But I've just been busy.

I'm the newest employee of Forever 21 & it's such a happy good dream job.
I get to look at beautiful clothes all day & think of outfits and junk. My love for dressing up is ridiculous.
But it's there! Ha. I've been sick but my throat is getting better I believe. I hope I get to feeling tip top soon.

Sickness.

I'm tired of being sick. Everything hurts. I found out I have scholiosis and my neck curves the wrong way. So pretty much my life suuuucks. I don't know why if you decide to stop being friends with someone or something stupid like that it becomes EVERYBODY's buisness. Why can't people just accept that I have my reasons. I'm not going to tell the world. Yeah. So everyone can think she's a bad person. No. I'm not going to do that. That's how stuff gets started. I just have my reasons. Everybody has reasons why they do things. Some people do too much. Some people just don't care. You didn't care. Bottom line. You care about you. That's great and all, you should care about yourself but you weren't my best friend. Morgan Osburn is my best friend. Not you. You are much too self centered & blame everybody else when it's not everyone else. You control your life. You make your own decisions. You don't care about me. You knew something happened and you acted like everything was fine. I don't understand why. How is it that you think I could recover from something like that in 20 minutes? What goes on in your head, I do not know. What I do know is that I don't have to be a part of it. And I don't have to give you a reason. You're a complete jerk and then two days later you're kissing my butt. I'm not having that. You're not a friend. You're just there.

I've got to get better. And I'll be better off without you.

Day Fourteen & Fifteen

A person I've drifted away from.
Taylor Marie Hinson. I miss you making me pee my pants.


The person I miss the most.
Eli Velazquez. Yeah. I said it. Won't ever say it again. But I miss my little puerto rican boy.
Sure he isn't perfect & always seems to think everyone wants his input, but he's still special to me.

Day thirteen.

Someone I wish would forgive me.

David Dick.
I think you're the only person who isn't in my life right now when I feel like they should be. Let's fix things. I doubt you'll read this, but it's important to me. I love you dude.

Days 7 through 12. (:

Since I was in Mexico for five days I'm catching up.

Day 7-
My ex boyfriend.
I really don't have much to say to you or about you.
You took everything. You left me nothing to hold onto.
I've built myself back up. I'm proud of being a strong person.
You're not. You're not a terrible person. Just selfish.
I don't hate you. But I'd never speak to you again if I had the chance.
I don't want anything to do with you. You're dead to me.

Day 8-

My favorite internet friend.

I've been really excited for this one! He won't be just an internet friend for long.<3 He's probably my favorite person on the face of this earth. He's got the most beautiful smile. He helps me through everything. I love him, probably more than he loves me. And when we finally meet, I'm gonna attack him. wiff hugs. :] he's the cutest thing. You're amazing, Luis Orellana. <3 I love you, sugar. (: can't wait for you to be close to me.

Day 9-
A person I wish I could meet.

see 'Day 8.' <3

Day 10-

Someone I don't talk to as much as I'd like to is my dad. He's important to me, whether he knows or not. It's just hard to always talk to him because I'm pretty busy but I'll do better.

Day 11-

A desceased person I wish I could talk to is my grandpa.

He was really silly & always made me laugh, but I wish I knew more about him.

Day 12-

The person I hate the most, who has caused me a lot of pain.

see 'Day 7'.

Bye.

Tonight.

Tonight was necessary. Very necessary.
I love my mother I think more than anyone else.

Day Six: A Stranger

Dear Stranger,
I don't know about you. I don't know what you do. I don't know who you are. I don't know if I ever will. Stranger, all I can tell you is I hope everything works out for you. Exactly the way you would like. I hope you get your dreams, and aspire to be a good person. Maybe one day, we won't be strangers.